Dreams

I have been having a lot of dreams lately. Most of them have been about my ex-husband and me being together. Why? I don’t understand that. I don’t hate my ex, but I don’t like dreaming about him either. He is happily married now. I’ll be honest, sometimes I don’t think it’s fair that the one who cheated is happily married and doing well in life while I struggle at times. My mental health has done a number, but I am doing much better in that department. I used to have a guardian, and I no longer do so; that is proof that I’m doing better. My next goal is to take back control of my finances (I currently have a payee).

Do any of you know why I’d be dreaming about my ex? I just wish I understood. Perhaps I’ll discuss it with my therapist.

Another thing that is bothering me is my weight gain. I’m up to 237 lbs. now, and I’m just sick about it. But at the same time, I can’t stop eating at night. It’s awful. I was hoping the nice weather would help, but so far, it hasn’t. My med manager reduced my Abilify, so hopefully that will help. I need to lose the weight because my knees and feet have been hurting quite a bit. I went shopping yesterday for some healthy snack options and spent $60! I think healthy food options should be more affordable, and junk food should be more expensive. Junk food should be viewed as a treat. People would eat healthier if it were more affordable.

Something else that recently happened…my front tooth broke! I definitely don’t want to smile now. I’m going to the dentist tomorrow. I should get dentures, but my insurance doesn’t cover them, and I can’t afford them, unfortunately.

I hope you all have a nice day and week ahead. I’ll be back soon.

Peace & Love,

Dorothy ❤